Whew, February was quite a month. I had three medical appointments this month, one infusion, and one round of labwork. Two of the medical appointments were with new specialists that I’d been waiting to see for a long time, and while they were good, they were a lot to process. Overall I felt pretty anxious, overwhelmed, frustrated, and defeated about medical stuff/my health in February, and I felt so physically unwell that it was difficult to process those emotions and handle the medical admin side of things.
My birthday was this month and I actually really enjoyed it, which was so much fun! Over a Thursday-Sunday, I spent the night at my family’s for my birthday dinner; Kenna and I had a lunch and shopping day; and my family celebrated Valentine’s Day. Other things I was able to do in February: run fun errands with Joshua; have weekly phone calls with Brooke (and one with Sara!); hang out at a coffee shop with some people from church; go to small group with my parents; have Kenna over; go to a bakery and a ballet with my dad; and be a background actor in a short film. I also had a tap lesson (SO good to be back!) and two voice lessons.
This month I’m…
Reading: Sensing God, Joel Clarkson. The Wolves of Willoughby Chase, Joan Aiken (reread). City of Bones, City of Ashes, City of Glass, City of Fallen Angels, City of Lost Souls, and City of Heavenly Fire, Cassanda Clare (all rereads, and I can’t put into words how much I enjoyed my foray back into the Shadowhunter world). The Lion of Mars, Jennifer L. Holm. Every Moment Holy, Douglas Kaine McKelvey. A Cuban Girl’s Guide to Tea And Tomorrow, Laura Taylor Namey. You Have A Match, Emma Lord. Scavenge the Stars, Tara Sim. Wolf Hollow, Lauren Wolk. Roman and Jewel, Dana L. Davis. In the Year of the Boar and Jackie Robinson, Bette Bao Lord (reread). From the Desk of Zoe Washington, Janae Marks. The Green Ember, S. D. Smith. Payback, Kristen Simmons. 19 total (you can tell how badly I’ve been feeling by how many books I read in a month–in February I apparently averaged 1.5 per day, lol).
Listening to: The Greatest Showman. My “cooking in the kitchen late night” playlist (it’s a very specific vibe). Anchor, Novo Amor (and its song radio). Glitter & Gold, Barns Courtney. Carry On – Acoustic, Young Rising Sons. Gimme That Sunshine, Animal Island. False Confidence, Noah Kahan. Take Yours, Matthew Mole. u suck and Emotions, Emily Bear. John Hughes Movie, Maisie Peters.
Eating and/or cooking: PB&J toast with plums. Thin Mints. White chocolate macadamia nut Luna bars. Honey garlic chicken breasts (with zucchini and rice because that’s all I ever eat). Spaans lemon coconut cookies. For my birthday: Pork carnitas, chocolate pie, cinnamon sugar air fryer donuts. For Valentine’s Day: Homemade pizza, sugar cookies.
Writing: This month I wrote 42 letters and received 36. I messed around with writing some chronic illness liturgies. And I also completed training to be a volunteer with Dysautonomia Support Network, which didn’t actually involve any writing but seemed to fit into this category.
Buying: A new bookcase for my bedroom. A “Love grows here” sign to go by my kitchen sink. Lots of stationery stuff, from Etsy and Michael’s and the Dollar Tree and a bookstore. Target goodies. New placemats. A second cat scratcher for my cat (which she has proceeded to completely ignore). Goodies from Trader Joe’s, Sprouts, and Lidl. A literary cats mug. A ring from Etsy. And way too many books.
Grateful for: 70 degree weather. Clients being flexible with deadlines and workloads. Doctors who are knowledgeable and prepared. My kitchen, my bedroom, I just love my home. Catching up with long distance friends. Seeing dogs (like the one who lives downstairs and greets me from its balcony, or the two-month-old dachshund in a yellow raincoat). Medical receptionists who help you navigate the phone maze. Learning more about storytelling from multiple different standpoints. Friends who buy you chocolate. How my cat has been sleeping curled up against my back. And I’m extremely grateful for the people who give me the accommodations I need so I can continue to do the things I love at least in some capacity.
What did you do in February? What’s something you’re looking forward to in March?