I was very sleepy, in pain, and generally not feeling well this morning. Thankfully I didn’t have a lot of work and I could get a slow start at 11:30. Mentally I’m on Christmas break mode, and it’s the best feeling! I’m thinking about spreads I want to make in my bullet journal, graphs representing all the books I read this year, getting new pen pals… I’m also SO excited to spend time with my family. I think Christmas is at the perfect spot this year–it’s right in the middle of the two-week break, so I have a week of the break to anticipate it and then a week afterwards to enjoy, too.
But we’re not quite there yet. I wrote a client blog post and submitted a couple of the posts I’d written yesterday. Then, even though I was feeling worse/more exhausted, I got up and made some French toast and tea and cleaned the kitchen.
At 2:30 I had a voice lesson. My teacher was exposed to Covid this week, so we ended up doing a video lesson today. Unfortunately our lesson didn’t go quite as planned, though. I have occasional episodes where I lose all language capacity for a few minutes and I’m not able to speak, read, or think. I’ve been having them for almost two years, but I just recently started also having memory lapses/amnesia along with them. I woke up on the couch at 3:15 with no idea how I got there, what time/day it was, what I’d been doing today, or anything else. I had a text from my teacher asking if I was okay; I thought I’d missed our lesson because I was asleep. But then I noticed I’d had a nine-minute incoming call from her, and when I asked her if we’d been having a lesson, she said yes and explained to me what had happened. It slowly started to come back to me that I’d had one of my episodes during our lesson (they happen most often while I’m practicing voice). I had hung up our FaceTime because I couldn’t explain what was happening. Then somehow I guess I got on the couch and fell into a deep sleep. It took me about an hour (and some texts from my mom reminding me what I’d been doing today) to get somewhat back with it.
I had been planning to go to Hobby Lobby today to get a couple of final Christmas gifts. But after my episode my mom and I decided I shouldn’t drive today, so she came to pick me up and we made a quick trip to Hobby Lobby and Petco. When I got home around 6 I just laid in bed for a couple of hours on my phone because I didn’t feel up to doing anything else; I’ve still been really disoriented and having trouble remembering things all afternoon and evening. Hopefully tomorrow morning I’ll be a little more clearheaded.
Today I’m grateful for: A surprise Christmas gift from Grace Anne.